the crusader speaketh

this is an obligatory post to fulfill raymond's yell at me to "UPDATE!"

eventful week, it has been. i'm starting to settle in with the people at campus crusade and i really feel that this path is God directed.

likely road ahead is probably doing publicity for metamorphasis, the crusade camp. frankly i am a wee bit surprised because i have always been more of an adminstrative/behind the scenes kind of person than one who stands in the limelight.

crossroads, aka the campus crusade worship service, was good that night. i've learnt quite a lot from one thursday evening. but that i will leave to another post.

really tired. but kind of happy. =)

internet's latest restricted page

someone tell me how this page got classified into the same category as porn pages? no this was not photoshopped.

ntu has a weird internet connection.

arguing with an atheist

ok so that guy may not really be an atheist. (i did not ask.) but one thing i know is that he does not believe.

anyway i just realised the value of Scripture when people question about God and His existence, His reasons for doing things the way they did.

this will be a short post of the more memorable parts of the chat, because i've gotta rush off to sleep.

for once, i found myself challenged to explain my faith without christina (who usually does the talking) around. i was asked to explain, among half a zillion arugments and questions of God's apparent shortcomings, why God does not die, why God allows atrocities such as murder to take place, why Jesus condemned the Pharisees and why (the guy i was chatting with) was not allowed to condemn preachers as "crooks".

each and every point was rebutted with contextual knowledge of the Bible as well as God's word. we may not fully be able explain the reasons behind all of God's actions but God does not leave us overly stranded in the face of a question firing squad.

this debate refreshed my spirits and my faith in God. that living life, to quote mr. atheist, "misled" is better than living life without Christ. that i can actually stand up for Christ, and do my bit to magnify His wonderful name.

it also made me realise the importance of having an adequate grasp of the Word... and not to say a trying test of my patience when that guy starts flaming you. (cue to shake head)

that said, i think i'd better quickly finish up my readings and go to sleep.
God bless!

p/s: raymond, i hope this satisfies your request for a decent post. =p

the sex lives of snails and life

have i ever told you that i love the theatre? much much more than my how-many-inches-super-expensive plasma television.

i love the stage and how it allowed for expression and thought-worthy themes to be brought across only by acting and props. no digital enhancements, no ngs, just pure talent and effort.

to date, however, i have only stepped into a theatre less than 10 times.

brings me to think about my existence.

19 years going on 20 and the average number of times i been to a play is once in maybe 4-5 years. you would think that for someone who loves the arts, she would take a wee bit more effort to support it or to be part of it.

there were so many things i've promised myself and God that i would do. like how after my o levels, i told God i'll return to church. but i really returned only 3 months after my a levels.

like how i told myself i would get my writing projects done, blog more, design a few more pieces of jewellery to sell, call up long lost friends, go for more plays.. some took ages to materialise, some cases never at all.

procrastination sure sucks. the only reason why it survives is because we always take for granted that tomorrow will always be there.

i nearly pushed this post to tomorrow but decided against it for fear i might lose track of what i was thinking about. i always do. then i'll regret.

19 years going on 20 and i feel i've accomplished very little.

i feel i should do more.

but that is a problem that i'll handle tomorrow.

btw just wondering... does anyone know how snails reproduce? i refer to the title of my post.

the day i found love once again

i believe i was witness to possibly one of the most beautiful things one could see in her christian walk - the view of nearly 11,000 like minded individuals coming together to worship Jesus. even better was seeing nearly 500 odd pre-believers coming to the front of the stage with the desire to accept Christ as Lord and Saviour.

these images gave me a joy so pure, so overwhelming. i do not think anything could happen to recreate a feeling that would come close.

i took some pictures with my camera phone (because silly me left my camera in hostel) but found that i was unable to upload it. (anyone knows if photos from a samsung x640c can be uploaded onto the computer?)

FOP was a fantastic experience, and a festival of hope for me.
on another note, darlene zschech is a really good singer.

"i believe, Lord, you have the power to break these chains of bondage. i believe, Lord, that You will set me free. i want to be free, Lord Jesus. i want to fly with You. i want to magnify Your name, and Yours alone..."

soundbite from FOP
"don't worry. everybody will get to see Jesus!" - some guy commenting sarcastically at the kiasu crowd trying to push into the indoor stadium.

postnote: photo courtesy of mr brown