hello, this is frustration speaking

"In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents." - Luke 15:10

a backslided christian once told me, upon learning that i am christian, that she "is one of the condemned ones" that people like me should despise.

i strongly believe i'm not in a position to judge, for who am i, but a servant of God, to judge a fellow human being? but i don't think i can understand why anyone who has experienced the love of Jesus could ever want to stray away from Him.

i don't understand.

a friend of mine recently backslided and i feel my heart breaking. it's like watching a romantic relationship fizzle out and the couple getting bored of each other, and now i witness the break-up. even though i'm not directly involved, my heart hurts badly for what was lost.

when the sinner repents, the angels of God whoop for joy, dance and sing and shout praises. but when the christian backslides, i wonder if the angels cry. i think they do.

i know this in my spirit because my heart cries as well.


the sky was grey when i came out of my lecture. the wind beat crisply against my skin, almost to the point of biting me. it suited my mood perfectly.

when everything seems to be going wrong, i pray that i will always remember the story of joseph in Genesis 50:20

"But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good, to bring to pass, as it is this day, to save much people alive."

i will have to take a short hiatus from blogging here because of exams. i will only blog if there's anything i need to share urgently.

God bless.

you know God ain't lying...

when you get a shirt like this:


man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.

in the following size:




p/s: i'm usually a medium size.