taming of the tongue

i always fail not let the instant gratifications of the flesh take over, i always forget that the remorse and conviction of having had, for that brief moment, sinned against God simply overrules everything else.

"We all stumble in many ways. If anyone is never at fault in what he says, he is a perfect man, able to keep his whole body in check."- James 3:2

"With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth comes praise and cursing." - James 3:9

i am far from godly and am definitely undeserving of God's love. i have not lived a life that glorifies His name. i'm in the mood to snap at anyone who tells me that christians are holier-than-thou and on the moral high horses because i certainly do not feel this way. i am just that irritable these days. my prayer and quiet time is very badly affected and i don't even know why.

yet it is fact: He still loves me. ugly heart, sin-tainted appearance and all. He still calls me His beautiful child.

i want to cry it all out. i just want to make right with God again, to know that everything will be ok because my world seems to be falling apart. the tears just won't come.



in other thoughts, let's imagine if we were all called to be preachers or pastors. what would your preaching be like?

rachel and i were talking about the preaching styles of pastors and we note that they preach based on what God has done in their lives. new creation church emphasizes on grace because their pastor's life reflects so; city harvest's focus on giving makes them a blessed church because their members are blessed by giving. no? for my church, i think faith is one big characteristic of what pastor preaches because his life is built on his faith in God's promises.

so, the logic goes that we preach based on what God has done in our lives, what would be my message to the people around me? what would be your story to the people around you? what has God done in my life that i can shout about?

i know for sure God surely changed me a lot in the past two years, things that are worthy of praise. yet i found that i could not pick a single definitive thing to share on if i should be called to preach.

sigh...