testify to love

she knew that the time drew near: she had to share to a roomful of people about what God did for her in the past two to three weeks. the all-too-familiar butterfiles were starting to flutter in her stomach.

"oh God... i don't know how to do this! what have i gotten myself into?! what if my words came out incoherent? what should i share? oh God oh God oh God..."

words nearly failed her. it didn't help that she had a huge ulcer which made it difficult for her to speak.

it was time.

she was amazed that her voice came out steady. the thoughts rolled out pretty coherently and the audience laughed with her.

"not bad..."

as she sat down, she looked back and was simply amazed at the extent to which her Father came through for her even till that very last second of her sharing. the day had been a long and tiring one, yet talking about her Father's goodness miraculously refreshed her soul in a way beyond her comprehension.

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"during these two weeks God gave me a vision, a direction to keep on praying. for most of us, engage and cdp might be over - for me, it's only the beginning."

i nearly cried as i quietly pondered on how undeserving i was of His love, and yet i know in my spirit that it is fact. this was really a case of "count your blessings, one by one, and be surprised at what the Lord has done."